I know i'm not perfect.
I will never be perfect.
And I'm sorry if I cannot be the leader that you expect me to be.
I know i will fall short and I have.
Indeed I cannot please everyone at the same time and I will not do it from now on.
I will and must do what is right at the right time, to please God, not man.

Now i think i know how pastor feels when a leader in the zone says something about him.
Because, all they see is what affects them, and they get pissed off and start saying all sorts of rumours.
But what they DO not see is the struggles that pastor has to go through to make that decision.
I guess that's why so many people are angry at God. Because they are selfish, and think that if something doesn't benefit them, it isn't a good thing anymore.
My question is:
When you cannot see God's hands, can you trust God's heart?

I think i must, no matter how tough.
I need more wisdom, i need Wisdom from above!
God pls help me!

I'm beginning to really appreciate how God is so involved with the details of our lives, and how He plans the times and seasons and brings the right people for our destiny and future to be achieved.
God, I salute you for you ability to love the loveless, the hopeless, the downcast, the religious and those who spit and say things about you!
I guess, this is just another time to learn how to be a better leader.

Helps.

lots of love, lil' miss geek :).