It's been a really exciting journey since starting med school, albeit with some hiccups along the way - but I still thank God that I have this chance to do what I love to do. :)
Finally I get to pursue the dream I've had in my heart all along. That feeling, is pretty darn awesome. :)
Nevertheless, apart from studying, the past few months have taught me alot, good and bad. I can't say I'm perfect and I never will. But I know that I'm trying to be better. Each day, is a fresh start to fix my eyes on God, to choose to bless and not to curse, to learn to control emotions and anger, to learn to control the things I say.
It's still a long way to become the clay God wants to be. But I figured I might as well enjoy the moulding and the experiences that come with it. Yes, I have done things I hope I didn't, and sometimes I wish I knew better then. But then again, without that experience, it would not be me anymore.
Another note...Often we have expectations that when we do something, we'll get back something in return. But I've realised that I need to learn how to put down every expectation and know that my part is just to do what I need to do and the rest is up to the other person. Something I heard from a sermon recently really nailed the point. In life, we have to acknowledge that we may give everything we have to our job/work or relationships etc, and yet never get anything back. With this in mind, no matter what we do, we give our best but then our part stops there. The rest, is out of our control. We cannot control how people react to us or to what we have done ,but we can control how we react to them.
It's difficult, especially because by nature I'm more of a control freak when it comes to small things and details, but I know that slowly but surely I am becoming less of that, and hopefully, more understanding of all kinds of people in this world.
I guess God is training me now, for my future as a doctor, because there will be all sorts of patients I have to see and many of them aren't going to be easy to deal with and I really need an understanding and discerning heart.
Lord, help me become more and more like You. That is my cry, my prayer and my hope. Amen.
So Off I am to study, but I'll be back again once exams are over!! can't wait! :D so many things to do during the hols!! :D
