Life these days, is like a black and white coloured TV screen.

No colour, no excitement, it seems.
Things get blurry, and I kinda forgot how it was like to let go completely and play without a care or worry in the world.

Of course, I'm not overly worried or anything, but I'm definitely drained cos sitting and studying for 12 hours a day is not something I consider healthy.

I feel pretty much far away from everything that used to be close to me, my friends, family, the things I love to do, and even my members!! gosh... i hope that the next month passes quickly. At the same time I hope it doesn't, cos it means less time to do my work! what a dilemma!!

But i know this is a season, a phase, which I will get through. I know that I may have offended people due to my "not being there" and my busyness in this period. If it's you, I sincerely apologise and seek for your understanding.

But I have also learnt through this time that, no one is perfect and I have to stop my idealistic thinking of fairy tales and movies.
Cos things don't happen that way and I guess we just have to get use to it, let go, and move on.

I guess, things will change ALOT from now on, and just maybe, it will never be the same again.
Sometimes I really do wish I could fly away, and never return, and start my life on a new chapter, the way I always wanted to.

I know that having big dreams are really not easy, and we will encounter obstacles along the way, but we must press on. But we must never allow the dreams to be bigger than the DreamGiver.

So Lord, mould me and help me to be all You want me to be. I have lots to improve and learn, but I know you are enlarging my heart. :)

lots of love, lil' miss geek :).