i feel a well of emotions rising, but i can't seem to put them into words.

It's going to be a time of rest, recuperation and most importantly, i think a time to rewire my belief system and habits again.

Well, I'll be going for reconstructive surgery for my spine, in July. It's actually to fuse my bone together so that my spine will be straightened.
Come to think of it, I am prepared for it, but yet, at the same time, i'm not.

I mean, who can be ready for a major operation like that?

I think it is going to take a lot of determination and courage on my part and discipline to do things correctly so that I will recover fast.
At least, I know that I will make it and am determined to get well in the fastest possible time.

And i guess God's timing is really the best.
This operation has been delayed for 6 years now, and finally I am reallly doing it.

So..pls pray for me everyone!:) I'm riding on ur prayers!

Sometimes i feel so indebted to my parents.
I Really really do.
The amount of money spent on the operation is alot alot alot. And my heart wrenches everytime i think of how much they have to sacrifice for it.
Haiz.
I just pray that I will be able to earn alot of money next time and provide for them whatever they need and want, because what they have given up for me, is really alot.
And I think sometimes I wish i could have the money to pay for my own things and not need to rely on them anymore.
Oh wells, I guess it'll be a few more years before that can happen!

Anyway, i trust in God with all my heart.
Everything is gonna be okay:)
Everything will be alright!:)

I am strong and have always been! You can do it, Darice Jill. I believe in you.

lots of love, lil' miss geek :).